Oh… pity gal…
Maybe, must be try to build an other imagine then :p
Love,
blueSaphier
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Believe in your self, in the power you have... to control your own life day by day. Believe in the strength, that you have deep inside and your faith will help show you the way. Believe in tomorrow and what it will bring let a hope full heart carry you through for things will work out if you trust and believe there no limit to what you can do! The sky the limit.. So have your happiest with blueSaphier in Imaginary Factory. May God bless you all. Love -blueSaphier-
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I never know what the exact definition of a value / point in life. Suddenly the question comes into my empty mind. And the terrible is.... I do not feel powerless to answer the question ... and the natural drift to my mind in the past.... this is not imagination, It’s about return to the past to get answers.
During in junior high school, I realized that children are not as clever, but somehow I fully realize that I am intelligent and have a value (nah. .. have value but have a feeling that does not understand the meaning of "value" it sounds so strange?).
Value 1:
I always get fluctuation value / point for almost all subjects, it mean, sometimes I can get 10 point but sometimes just get 2 point in my exam. Strangely ... values that are replay on paper never influence me to feel happy (when get 10 point) or feel sad and destroyed (when get 2 point) somehow my feelings just same.
Value 2:
Special lessons for drawing, in junior high school when I did not receive at least for minimum 7 point. Why? because I know that I can get a value above 8 point. So if not get 8 point I will negotiations with the teacher, I don’t mind if he needs me to create a new picture, until I get at least 8 point. At that time I was defeated by only 2 friends who smart and creative in drawing.
Someday in high school, I was got to draw a value of 6 point. I asked the teacher the reason, and he answered, "You do not draw by your own hand. You were someone else." I wonder, how can he take such a conclusion? While he does not know the real of case, I wonder about it! But with the humble attitude, I said, "Give me 10 minutes to draw again in front of you right now!" and ....
after that I always get a value above 8 point for drawing. And I've never been willing people in the class have a value higher than me in my high school, why? because I know my best to portray that time in the classroom. If the time in junior high I know that I can not exceed 2 other friends.
Value 3:
I remember about my report value of “nahwu” 9 point (nahwu it’s about grammar lesson in Arabic language) at school in the Islamic boarding school, I visit my teacher and ask for revised become 6 point, because I know the value isn’t appropriate for me at the time.
The same thing happened to physics lessons in public schools, when I receive my regular report and get 8 point, so I have revised 6. At that time, I think the physics teacher still remember the events, because when I came and ask for the revision, he is ready to get mad, "You want how much point HAH!", and when I answered “6”, he roar with laughter.
But when I get 5 point for sports, I also won’t receive, because I know I can afford them and the value I have to 8, why? Because at that time I have become athlete of muscle sport “Pencak silat” and I get silver medal at national level. I’m amaze when get 5 point for track, I ran the fastest no. 2 in my class (the no. 1 is runner athlete, and I just pencak silat athletes hehe) and we (me and the runner) around the football field as much as 20 times, when we finish, the other an average of 7-9 new complete. So ... I get 5? No way!
Value 4:
Note: to be continu .. sleepy :)
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TP 29, 310508, 1.57am He is so silly and funny's guy, I met him at the first time at my place while he visited his friend at January 2006, and his friend is my friend also who stay at the same place with me at the boarding house.
In the morning he just knocks my door and asking me to accompany him to go to the coffee shop if I want to get some breakfast, coz his friend just went to the office in early morning.
I’m just going to breakfast with him eventually, after that we are getting close each other.
The second time we were met each other at February 2008. My old friend invite me to meet her at her apartment, we aren’t met each other for a long time a go, and I decided to accept her invitation.
Suddenly, she was mentioned me about the guy who came from Canada, he just arrived and stay at upstairs, I’m wondering about him, and his name sound familiar for me, and I just went to upstairs and met him again, we have a big hugs coz of felt surprised with our meeting. So we were gone to Yogyakarta together after that.
The third time, we met each other when he just from the airport at May 27, 2008, and I’m walking in the street from the Bank, he called me but I didn’t notice coz of crowded on the street, so he just waiting me in the car, and I’m felt surprised when notice who’s waiting me….
We have accident meeting in all of our past meeting, it’s strange for us, he just wondering why always me, somebody who the first time he met in Indonesia?
Yeah… what ever the way that almighty was created for us… I’m so happy have him as my friend.
“If I must choose the place to be sick, I need Indonesia and especially Yogyakarta to be sick hehe…” don’t tell like that anymore groovy guy, coz you’ll be strong here… :p
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TP 29 Jkt, 030508, 4.50am
Just got off line message at YM
SW (5/3/2008 3:53:42 AM): Friendship is love minus sex and plus reason. Love is friendship plus sex and minus reason
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TP 29 Jkt, 300408, 3.33pm
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Without you, I’ll be fine
But..
With you, I’ll be better
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TP 29 Jkt, 280408, 9.46am
Finally, I found somebody who I can share anything…
He was made me laugh and cry in the same times.. hehe
I’m not see him for long time a go… around 3 or 4 years I guess, suddenly he just popped up on YM, we are talking about anything, he just said “Oh dear, your ‘pembersihan’ is to hard!” keep ‘latihan’ with helper, and used ‘testing’ to guide / help you if you want.
If he is around me here… I might be used his shoulder, and he might be just give me a big hug including big laugh.. Ughh… ! And after that.. he will start playing guitar and sing some silliest song hahaha…
We are like a brother and sister… sometimes had an argued each other… but we know that we care each other…
And now… he stays in far far a way… with his wife and their cute kids… might be flying for 17 hours to meet him I guess… May God bless you brother…
Thanks for nice chat last nite… at least… I was throw my bad feeling on you hahaha…
You can used latihan to clean up it Xixixi…
Thanks to be virtual Shoulder last nite LJ
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YM, 270408, 11.37pm
T : “Hey long time no see, apa kabar?”
Me : “Wow.. glad to meet you here, I’m fine thanks…!”
T : “What are you doing? How about T’s friends?”
Me : “They’re fine I guess, we are rare meet each other lately.”
T : “Still meet with R-guy?”
Me : “Yeah sometimes.”
T : “Is he married?”
Me : “He had 2 kids now :p.”
T : “Wow, with whom?”
Me : “With R-girl.”
T : “Hey.. That’s surprised! I thought R-guy younger than R-girl, hehe?!”
Me : “Yeah… and guess what? I was taking care their old baby since was born coz her mom felt worries to touch her baby, to soft, hehe…”
T : “Oh ya? Their baby might be sassy like you then, haha?!
Me : (mad icon)
T : (laugh icon) “You’re still easy to mad! Still breakfast with tiger?”
Me : (mad icon) “No, I’m eating dragon for breakfast now!”
T : (laugh icon)“So… how about you’re BF? Did you had brownies (brondong manis, to call younger guy as a BF) like R-girl (laugh icon)? Brownies might be make you feel healthfully all the time (laugh icon) Tell him to marry you soon, coz the end of the world will coming soon (laugh icon) You might be had a kids like us (R and T). My old kid at kindergarten right now, and the younger kid have an important job to make our house messy all day (laugh icon) It’s so amazing had them. Don’t waste your time then!”
And then… I’m just share about anything at him… he is like a brother for me… and I’m glad meet him here… Coz I can throw anything bad things at him.
It made me felt better now.
T : “Oh dear… it’s hard…! Be patient please… take care and keep pray and latihan. Almighty will save you. Came on dear… I know that’s you are a tough girl. You’ll be fine! Jia You! Ganbatte!”
I’ll playing my guitar now… this is the lovely song from your favorite singer George Groban, ‘YOU RISE ME UP’ lets sing together…. JREENGGGG….
“You raise me up…. Janganlah menangis.. sayang… kalau menangis.. merahlah pipinya….”
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He made me laugh and cry in the same times… Ughhh…..!
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TP 29 Jkt, 270408, 10.35pm
ya Allah…
If I was made something mistake…
Please give me YOUR guides and blessing to make it better…
If I do something the truth…
Please let him know in his heart…
That I want to say, "Thank you so much for anything was done…"
ya Allah
Please give him YOUR great blessing forever
as a ‘najmul hayah’
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Wisma Indonesia Jkt, 270408, 2-5pm
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Just finished practicing tari Saman from Aceh, I’m felt exciting coz of we had a lot of laugh together at that processed, we’re not a dancer except Ine and Widayanti, we just tried to make something performance for “Harlah” at June.
Guess what…? Almost my entire friend felt pain at our knee or cramps at our feet haha…
The speeds are too fast and make us “spank” each other Xixixi…
Tari saman such meaningfully for team work… we must support each other, learn for make a group cohesive, harmony, togetherness by one command.
I thought tari Saman talked about leadership management.
How trust each other…
How trust our leader…
And how keep compactness in the organization…
So… just don’t run a way if our performance become crowded eventually haha…
We’ll see….
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